apparently i am 19
To The Wonder
I am lured by faraway distances, the immense void I project upon the world. A feeling of emptiness grows in me it infiltrates my body like a light and impalpable fluid. In its progress, like a dilation into infinity, I perceive the mysterious presence of the most contradictory feelings ever to inhabit a human soul. I am simultaneously happy and unhappy, exalted and depressed, overcome by both pleasure and despair in the most contradictory harmonies. I am so cheerful and yet so sad that my tears reflect at once both heaven and earth. If only for the joy of my sadness, I wish there were no death on this earth.
Aus dem Leben der Marionetten (Ingmar Bergman, 1980)